The Old is gone and the New has come

Its been quite a while since I last posted and I'm getting into my blog accounts and trying to get back in the swing of things. This was created initially as a motivation with video uploading, but never panned out. The Air Force took quite a bit of time and other work pressures took their toll that my health failed by July 2011.

I'll never forget the day my biological father passed, cancelling my big test with the AF and months of unspeakable pain and not knowing what was going on. Passing out 40minutes into my fathers funeral I was wisked away in an ambulance and hospitalized for 3 days and discovering I had systemic lupus. Hair falling out and eventually a biopsy revealing class 3/4 kidney disease, maybe one step from dialysis I began infusions in November. 4 months being excused one weekend a month from snowplowing duties.

Despite all of this, the day after my father died I had decided I couldn't think the same as before, to cry or get down because it made me bed ridden. This new way of thinking, a boundary, not allowing myself to go in the pit had a surprising affect and blessings. At a surf luah I won a long board, now having 2 that someone could go out in the waves with me if needed. I was able to get a part time office type work. Although my income dropped drastically from no AF pay and my debts trippled from medical and the wig maintenance in chicago, people saw me in a whole new light as I also saw things differently. I now was the one to carry on the torch for my father and keep the family connections.

Fast forward 2 years later and I've run 5ks the previous summer (starting with 10 min walks before my legs gave out in march 2012), was nominated for leadership within ministry in valpo and michigan city, a promotion as an investigator in august 2013 and an outstanding testimony before the board at Lackland AFB, TX. I'm not able to be part of the AF but I know God has better plans.

Since that time I got out of the house of 8 years that was causing my eyes to swell shut, my mom is letting me stay at her new house and work out my debts, and recently at work I've been nominated as a wellness champion for a year. On top of that, I haven't had to take a sick day form work once since I  moved out in October and I should be steroid free in June. Its been a long Journey, but God is good ALL the time and in His time, if its HIS will I will be strong enough to do more of the projects I'd like to do like video.